Update: I think im finally getting over the flu/ strep and hopefully ill be nice and clean for a while.

Competition this weekend. Im sooo excited. Why?. i dunno. i hate chorus..yet i absolutly love it. Im soooooooooo psyched!

So whats wrong?....I really dont know. In a way i do. This year is flying by. Everyone is dying to graduate, and i am to. Im really excited, but at the same time im dreading it. for the past 12 years  Ive grown up with the same people, doing the same stupid shit, trying to get through the same changes. As much as everyone says theyre glad to leave its still hard. Its hard to leave people youve spent a majority of your life with. Granted i hate most of them, but ill miss hating them. Ill also most of all miss the ones i love. The people who maybe i dont hang out with as much anymore but still helped to shape who I am. Sometimes i feel like people take their friends for granted, but ive learned not to. I truely love them. I would love to start nameing them off and telling them what they mean to me but that would take all night. but there is one.

 Steve. Steve is seriously the love of my life. I dont know what i would do without him. Hes one of the few people that actually fully get me. He understands the 2 sides to me, crazy ass and dead serious and passionate about what i love. His move to freman has already tested our friendship, and no things arent the same, im not going to lie. I just hope it can withstand the test of college. Im so afraid to loose him. I dont want to settle for the card at christmas and that being the only contact i have with him. But lets face it. were practically grownups now. we have to get our shit together and go with life wherever it takes us. Im just not ready to give up the battle